The worst part of this infertility crap is all the freaking W.A.I.T.I.N.G.
Waiting for appointments, waiting for results, waiting for my period to start, waiting for BCP to do their thing, the two week wait, yada yada yada.
Our new clinic puts everyone on the same schedule for stims so they only do egg retrievals once a month. That means 4 full weeks of BCP instead of just 2 weeks, which is the minimum. *sigh*
We made our decision to use donor sperm. We have our schedule, I just want to freaking get started already! I want to stop second guessing, stop worrying, stop thinking, etc. We will finally get to see if my eggs can even make embryos. We’ve spent over $65,000 already and we’ve never gotten that far! The suspense is killing me.
We haven’t purchased a single baby item yet. I’m not really superstitious, but I’m secretly worried about jinxing it. How lame! As I just wrote that, I was thinking that if we had started purchasing baby stuff 2 years ago when we got started TTC, we could have gotten everything by now and at the best prices! Maybe that will be my next project while I’m waiting waiting waiting.
I promise to fill my blog over the next several weeks with useful stuff instead of complaining!!