IVF #3 – 8 Weeks 2 Days Pregnant – Morning Sickness

I used to want to be a spy for the CIA. I even learned Arabic after 9/11 and then applied. They rejected my application, but they didn’t give an explanation why. I think the CIA knew something about me then that I just learned about myself. They must have known that if I was captured by the enemy, the enemy wouldn’t even have to torture me to get information. All they’d have to do is make me nauseated and I would give it all up. I would tell them anything and everything they would ever want to know just for a little relief.

My real morning sickness started the evening of 6w6d, just over 9 days ago. Within a few short days of writhing in bed 24 hours a day and me begging whoever would listen to make it stop, an evil part of my brain reminded me that a miscarriage could make it stop. This is how I know I’d give up all my spy secrets if the enemy made me nauseated. Who spends over $80,000, invests thousands of hours in research and doctor appointments, and immeasurable amounts of heartache to make a baby and then after 3 days of nausea begs for it to come to an end?

Do I actually want a miscarriage to make it stop? Of course not. But in the midst of my agony I couldn’t seem to make those thoughts of sweet relief stop entering my brain. And that’s how I knew that my goal of an unmedicated pregnancy would come to an end. I love the babies and my biggest fear is that something bad will happen to one or both of them. But if I’m imagining a miscarriage as “sweet relief” I need to make some changes.

On Friday (7w6d) I discovered this article about vitamin B6 and Unisom. I sent Mr.E to Walgreens and took half a Unisom tablet in the morning. I had my first OB appointment that afternoon. There was NO way I was going to be able to make it to that appointment. I was in too much misery. But the Unisom made it possible! We got to see the babies again, this time via my very first abdominal ultrasound.

Doxyalamine, the active ingredient in Unisom, is pregnancy Category A, which basically means it’s one of our safest options. None of the Rx meds for nausea and vomiting are category A. Zofran is Category B and Phenergan is Category C. Even though I desperately wanted a medication-free pregnancy, I view the Unisom as definitely the lesser of many evils and certainly preferable to the nightmare and heartache of a miscarriage.

If you get nausea after you get that elusive BFP, don’t let it get so bad that you’re looking for sweet relief in all the wrong places. Talk to your doctor about trying the B6 and Unisom combination.

UPDATE: 8/11/14 @ 6pm
When we were still in the thick of things trying to find sperm and figure out why there weren’t any, I used to get so annoyed with whiny pregnant people on FB. I would think, “You ungrateful little brat! How dare you complain! Don’t you have any clue how lucky you are?” and, “I would never complain. I would love the stretch marks and the nausea and the lack of sleep, all of it. I want those motherhood battle scars. Give them to me.”

I guess what I wanted to get across in this post is that just because you’ve suffered emotionally and physically trying to get pregnant doesn’t mean you’re not allowed to suffer once you are pregnant. Nor does it mean you have to suffer silently during pregnancy.

Hopefully this clarifies my thoughts and doesn’t make it worse. I don’t want anyone to think I’m complaining. But I promised myself that I would be truthful and honest in this blog. I don’t want to leave out any of my feelings.

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3 thoughts on “IVF #3 – 8 Weeks 2 Days Pregnant – Morning Sickness

  1. Hahaha, I understand this so much. When I first got pregnant I was the same way, I thought, “I am never going to get sick, because getting morning sickness is all in people’s heads, and I am SO happy to be pregnant that morning sickness isn’t going to happen to ME.” Bahhaha. If only. I think morning sickness hit me right about the same time as you, 7 weeks in. Honestly, I thought I’d love pregnancy, and I really didn’t enjoy it much at all. The best time for me was about 22 weeks to 38 weeks. From 7-22 I was sick and 38-40 I was uncomfortable. I imagine things will be doubly difficult for you because you’ve got two buns in the oven. Good luck! It’s worth it. Glad you’re getting some relief with the b6 and unisome!

    PS. I never said congratulations! I am beyond thrilled for you and your family!!

  2. Truth. The nausea is nasty business. And no one ever feels sorry for you “because it’s all part of being pregnant.” At least that was my experience. Thank you for your honest post about a very real part of pregnancy, including the very spendy ones!

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